This nursing school thing just seems out of my grasp.
I want to do my best but keep waiting to hear of bad news like I bombed a test or something. Well I should hold my tongue because our first test is this coming Thursday for Pharmacology, and I'll probably blog about it good or bad.
Anyway I feel like a chicken with my head cut off running around with my days all swirling together and I don't know if I'm coming or going. Maybe it's just me and the way I handle things but I feel like I can't let things slip like I use to with my other classes (once in awhile) but that I need to stay on top of things so much so that I'm paranoid I'm going to ruin everything.
Uggh I hate feeling like this, it’s a cross between feeling helpless and terribly worried that the instructor will see through my facade of temporary smarts that has gotten me thus far.
Recently I was intrigued to read on another’s blog of wanting to practice for NCLEX questions (I’m with you on that one) and some advice that was given to them of going over 10-15 NCLEX questions each night. Really each night, do we have that kind of time? I have a hubby and kids and time like that isn't available for me, but more reserved for those fresh out of high school with no kids, hubby’s or jobs to concentrate their time on. How could someone like me plan to get it all done, do I start sacrificing my precious sleep?
Lastly this week I had my first clinical at a nursing home and got to “visit” with a patient in hopes of gathering health history information from them. While I was pretty nervous to walk around with my fancy scrubs and lab coat on, it didn’t seem too impressive to the patients or staff for that matter (humbled yet again).
What I also learned about myself is that I need to really practice allowing for silence, especially with the elderly. I find that I want to help finish their sentences, or I don’t want the interview process to be too uncomfortable or difficult for them to remember important dates and names.