So when my instructor sat me down in her office later that afternoon and asked what happened I didn’t have any excuses to give but the truth. I guess she didn’t like my answer and told me that I shouldn’t have the idea in my head that if I don’t do something the nurse will catch my mistakes. She said that I AM to be thinking that I am the “nurse” so I SHOULD HAVE given the med, not expecting the nurse I was following to do it. My instructor then went on to say “I’m sorry this has to go in your academic file especially being your last clinical and all.” I was thinking what kind of a dork tells me this on my last clinical day?! I get that it was my responsibility and that I shouldn’t have expected my nurse to do any of my work, but come on. I mean if I were malicious in my intent or purposefully neglectful I could understand. Or I could understand, if by my doing, the patient was given an extra dose or the wrong med, but my nurse gave the meds that I didn’t and she never mentioned that it was a problem to me.
I think my instructor was trying to find someone to fault in our class this semester and I was that person. Either way she teaches by intimidation which doesn’t sit well with most of the students in my class. She also
threatened informed me other instructors next semester will see the red flag in my file and pay close attention to my short comings, making sure I don’t make this mistake again. Nice… If I had any bit of confidence up until this point, I surely don't now. I’ve officially been knocked off my perch, so-to-speak.
Other than that I totally bombed my oxygenation/perfusion exam Friday with a 68% for my score. I know what happened, I poured all of my time in a 17 page paper and not enough time into studying. I have to average 73% on all my exams, and so far I’m in the clear, but I really want to rock the final coming up so I can feel rest assured with my overall grade in the class.
On a lighter note I filled out my internship paper work for this coming summer. I applied to four hospitals in my area that I get a chance to work as a nurse tech. I’ll be paid roughly half the salary of a new nurse for eight weeks, being able to put to use my nursing skills. I’m super excited, thrilled, and scared all at the same time. I hope I do well, and I hope I get extended an interview and offer.